Melissa.

I Just Had an extremely Vivid Dream of death

I know people dream every night and they are usually nothing of great note and to most people reading this, it is also probably nothing at all noteworthy to them but to me it really was and it was exactly how I would imagine death to feel. I have had plenty of horrific dreams before, I have dreams that involve deep water very often (maybe I’m drowning or trapped inside a flooding ship with no likely possibility of escape) I’ve also had quite realistic rape attack dreams. Neither of these have ever resulted in death. Lots of people say you can’t die in dreams and if you do you are dead in real life and for about five minutes after I woke I wasn’t sure if I was alive or not, I am still unsure, maybe after we die we carry on living as if the thing that killed us never actually took place and it has just been wiped from our memories. Anyway, my dream! So, I was on a train that was travelling pretty fast a across a stretch of open water and very close to the terminal station. I turned to my friend and said “if this track was to give way, we would die, wouldn’t we?” she rolled her eyes at me and said yes. I thought about how it would feel to drown and panicked a little then noticed that we were heading towards the end of the track (a big purple wall) and picking up speed. Everyone in my carriage was screaming. When we hit the wall, there were a few seconds of excruciating pain along with a very intense heat, which I could only imagine to be fire from the explosion. I had my eyes closed and I could feel my whole body melting, but it wasn’t an unpleasant feeling, I felt really euphoric. I knew I was dying and was completely okay with it. Then everything went white and deadly silent, it was the brightest light I have ever seen. Then I died. Then I woke. I hope that death feels similar to this in real life, if so, there isn’t much reason to fear it. I was quite accepting of it even though I know there is so much more in life that I want to experience. Then again, it was only a dream.


I am so excited to see my lovely boyfriend on Wednesday! we are going to make Fajitas and spaghetti bolognaise and have a cream tea in Oxford and go for a lovely meal! I am so happy!


Sea turtles are so cute! This is what I want to do with my summer (amoungst other things). I mean I want to help the baby sea turtles and keep them from the poachers I think it would be so amazing, everyone says things like this, volunteer programmes, are a lot of fun. Also, it would be so nice to go to Greece for a month on my own. I would feel so grown up! I just want to get involved in some sort of conservation programme so I can feel like i’ve made a difference. I hope I can actually have to motivation to earn the money and get it all booked, I probably wont. I can see myself looking back on this in six months time and thinking ‘oh, I never did that sea turtle thing’ This summer is really my last chance to do it so I need to get saving those pennies!

Sea turtles are so cute! This is what I want to do with my summer (amoungst other things). I mean I want to help the baby sea turtles and keep them from the poachers I think it would be so amazing, everyone says things like this, volunteer programmes, are a lot of fun. Also, it would be so nice to go to Greece for a month on my own. I would feel so grown up! I just want to get involved in some sort of conservation programme so I can feel like i’ve made a difference. I hope I can actually have to motivation to earn the money and get it all booked, I probably wont. I can see myself looking back on this in six months time and thinking ‘oh, I never did that sea turtle thing’ This summer is really my last chance to do it so I need to get saving those pennies!